Thursday, December 3, 2009

Facebook.

I realize this blog is more for myself then readers. What readers? lol. I think I officially quit facebook today. I am so sick and tired of watching what I say for fear of certain people being offended. I am tired of playing nice. Terrible? I know it is! I just want to crawl in to my very clean cave and sleep! However I can not. I have three small kiddies who depend on me for just about everything. I guess I should fill you in on my life lately. We moved to this new town in July. I came with an open heart and my eyes set on God. It did not take more then a month before I was knocked over by the reality that was set in front of me. No stranger to traveling and living in new places I knew it was going to be different here in the Magnolia State but as many things in life tend to throw us a curve ball this move definatly threw the curve and knocked me over. I have to say I do not fit in here. I feel very alone. Almost isolated. My family has been tested over the last few months over and over again. While we stand united, my heart is broken. I am sad. I am angry. I am afraid. I am not sure what God wants us to learn here? Why we are here? Or why we are hit every other week with a new trial? But what I can say is that my tank is empty. This blog is my attempt not to fall completely apart.

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