I do not get it .....right now

So the Conservative Nut went to coffee last night. And it was brought to his attention again that he is mistreated (as if he does not know that) To be honest we know. We are not going to sit and talk about it with anyone but each other. I don't understand why they treat us terribly. Nor am I about to ask them. This is where God has taken us. I think one of the things he wants us to learn is to have faith and trust him. I came here with hopes of learning from them and having a relationship. But it is all to obvious now that they really do not like us for whatever reason. And that is ok. I am trying to be understanding and pray for them hoping that I will not be angry and hurt any longer.I hope and pray that my God will deliver us from this place. When he is ready and more so when we have learned what he has wanted to teach us. I write today with a sad heart but hopeful eyes that will continue to look up in hope for the amazing future he is preparing us for. God bless you all today.

My brain is very un organized

My brain is all over the place. I am headed back to the gym TOMORROW. I need routine and to control the things I can with God's help. No more worrying about this or that. All I know is that God told me tonight through his word. To trust and rely on him. So I will.